Rants of mama

We went over my mum's place yesterday.I could sense that she misses Yasmin.Well,I miss her too.

I wish going over means less anxiety for me.I am anxious.Why? Because I'm wondering what comments would I have to work with later.My breastfeeding "habits" that's making her starve? Am I not making her enough food?How come there is rashes on her body?The lists could be endless.

I have good explanations for them all.But believe me,my scientific explanations would never be good enough.THEIR explanations is ultimately most acceptable.I give up."Afterall,we brought you all up"....yaddah...yaddah...yaddah...

No matter what.I love you mami and ayah.But I'm my "own" parent now.

What's so difficult about breastfeeding?Before Yasmin was born, I've always seen breastfeeding as something natural.It's Allah gift to mankind.HE created breasts for women so that they could nurture their young.Before there was formula, what do they give?

But it has been a journey till now for me to breastfeed Yasmin.I've got plenty of comments like,"Your milk is not enough","Your milk is not good enough".Well, unfortunately...if I were not equipped with good information,I would have probably stop breastfeeding her.

This site gives good information:www.kellymom.com

Read.Then pass your judgements.

Not enough food?Seriously, I can't be forcing food down her throat.Dad was making a fuss again.Sigh.Said that I was crazy to just feed her that much of food.I know Yasmin is a "snacker" kind of child.She eats.But bit by bit.When she wants to eat, she eats a lot.And I really don't stop her.I think that it's a good sign.Why?Coz....you should be eating when you are hungry.Isn't that a correct cue?

Rashes....for God's sake.Must I be blame for everything?The weather's been hot.Must I be changing the weather too?How about those chemicals in baby's products.Yes...do you know that you should not put talc on baby's diapers.Putting talc especially over baby girls diapers could increase the possibility of having ovarian cancer.That doesn't simply apply to babies mind you.Especially women.

Ok...enough of my ramblings.

Dear Yasmin....I'm just trying to be as best a parent that I could be.