BABY AND ME....

Raves & rant of a mum... A mum who's just plain proud of her baby...

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Frustrations...

I am truly truly exhausted because of work.But am trying hard to still spent time with my dear Yasmin.I feel like rushing off every time after work.Just zoom out.But the transport there hasn't been much "helpful" so I still take about 1hr to finally fetch her.Unless of course if dh were to fetch me.It takes merely 15-20mins.Spot the difference!

After fetching her today,though truly worn out,I brought her down with her newly-bought tricycle.Ironically,she enjoyed me pushing her around the neighbourhood.She even got to play in the playground and as usual refused to budge when we needed to return home.But I enjoy playing with her.Its just that the housework that seems pilling that bothers me.After reaching home,I accidentally fall asleep while nursing her.I'm tired...tired...tired!

Frustration at work....housework to finish....time to spent with Yasmin....I think I'm pulling out my hair soon!

I miss her very much.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Yasmin @ 20mths

I was thinking of the housework....the workload...the homework when I came across this interesting poem.Made me stop to think...it did...

This young girl suffering from cancer has 6 months left to live, and as her dying wish.She wanted to send a poem telling everyone to livetheir life to the fullest, since she never will.She'll never make it to prom, graduate from high
school, or get married and have a family of her own.

This is her poem:

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask "How are you?"
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift...Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower, hear the music

Before the song is over


Anyway,since I've started working,I've been slogging like crazy.I feel tired most of the time...but I guess that I just got to do what I've got to do.This is my driven purpose in life....not to work only lah....but to help provide and give my family the very best...of what I can...(wah...sound so serious like that).

Yasmin has been a lovely gal so far.She's grown so much.In a few months time,she'll be two!And she's already asking for a companion-"adik"(little bro/sis).Although I think she hasn't fully comprehend the full consequences/meaning of what she asked.She learns new words pretty fast,like a parrot.Recently, she got a new "shocking" vocab-"mampus"(die).Oh well....just hope it would be forgotten soon.Must remind dh of his usage of words-especially when he's driving....

She has been eating well too....just as long as you cook her favourite food.I tried to cook more but I'm still adjusting myself to the work schedules/routines.She do love fruits but am cracking my head on enticing her to our "Mr Greens" aka vegetables.She loves opening the fridge as well...searching for ....OUR JUNK FOOD!Ok....think I have to cut down on my junkies too.But I can't help it....when I'm stress I look for thses junkies(when I'm happy,I'm lean...when stress,I'll grow).Yasmin would be pointing to my M&Ms/biscuits.But one good thing when all these are out of stock....she'll point to her "ubat"(medicine) which actually is her vitamins syrup.She reminds me to give it to her every day.

I looooove to see her run.It is so damnn cute.Her hips would be swaying from side to side and her arms too,like someone doing the brisk walk...you should see.Hmmm...perhaps I could include her in my so-called jogging session soon(no not to lose weight lah....to increase my diminishing stamina).It would be most interesting.

Her favourite toy:"main masak-masak"(pretend play-cooking).She can get distracted for some time playing that.But at home...she loves to play using my frying pan,small pots and pans.Always wanting the real thing..this gal.

Meanwhile...everytime I'm at work...I'm always reminded of her.Pictures of babies nursing-remembers her nursing.Newborns-remember when she is born.Taking to other mothers-sharing experiences about our children.So...so far she's always close to my heart.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Hari Raya...memorable ones..

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Just some late Hari Raya pictures....

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Do we look a-like?

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Family potrait?

I was celebrating my "precious" Hari Raya days before starting work.You could say it was depressing but at the same time exciting.I miss my Yasmin dearly.But having had the opportunity to spent time with her makes it more bearable for me to start work again.

The initial days were terrible as I was clearly exhausted after work each time.It is still tiring but I have since adjusted to the timing again.I tried calling to talk to her but it didn't seem to be a good idea as she would cry and look for me after hearing my voice.It was so heart-wrenching.So I decided to just simply call when I was about to fetch her.

She seems more settled now but not me!I'm practically wanting to sleep each time I'm back home.Gosh....tried taking coffee(which I don't quite fancy nowadays) but it is just making my body sickly.I'm down with a flu.My eyes are barely open.I have tons of housework.I have tons to read up on.But seriously all I can do now.....all I need now is my nap.Goodnight....